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God, The Plan Changer
It's been quite a
while since I have posted anything to the blog. Since Joshua was born our life
has been turned upside down and all around. Our lives have changed so much
since my last post, I am still trying to process all of it. So where do I
In September, my
husband and I celebrated our 10 year Anniversary. We decided to throw a party
at a local Thai restaurant with family and friends. It was amazing-- Great food
with great people. It truly was an unforgettable
night. But while we were enjoying the company of our friends, in the back of my
mind I knew that things were about to change. For me, the party felt like a
farewell. I tried not to think about it, but I knew it was coming. See a couple
of days from that night, Jason was scheduled to have an interview with a
company in another state. And I knew…before they even talked…I knew within
myself, our lives were about to change again.
Sure enough, within
a few weeks, an offer had been made to my husband. It was too good to pass up.
We had been in this place before. As a matter of fact, just a year earlier,
this same company made Jason an offer. But we turned it down. It just wasn't the
right time and our work was not yet finished in Knoxville. However, this time
was different. This time we had peace about the decision to accept. My heart
was breaking at the thought of leaving our friends but it was also jumping with
excitement about what God had in store for us in the next city. So it became
official--the Crowes were moving to Huntsville, AL.
Let me just interject this side story here as a testament to how God works. A
few years ago, we were heading home from church and a random hypothetical
question came to mind. For whatever reason, I decided to ask my husband. I
asked him "If you were offered a job in, let's say, Huntsville, AL, for
more money than what you are making now, would you take it?" Of course, he
answered that he didn't know and we went home like business as usual. But I
never forgot asking that question. Little did I know God was speaking even
then. I am a witness that sometimes God will reveal little glimpses of his plan
for you if you just keep listening.
Now back to the
story…. We knew the move would be a lot of work and we wanted to get the kids
transitioned as smoothly as possible. We had to get the house ready to put on
the market (which thankfully we packed up quite a bit the previous year when we
tried to sell the house). A few trips were made to the Huntsville area to look
at homes and schools. The company was gracious enough to give us to the end of
the year to move to Alabama. My husband just had to go down one week a month to
work and the rest of the time he worked remotely from Knoxville. So we were
pretty sure we would be there until the end of the year. I mean, our house
didn't sell in the 5 months it was on the market the previous year so it
definitely was not going to be sold before the end of December, right?
WRONG!!! We put our
house on the market at the end of October and we got an offer on it in 8
DAYS!!! When we got the text that someone wanted to purchase the house we
jumped around for joy. Then reality set in. We had to be packed and out of the
house by the end of the month, not to mention we had not found a place to stay
in Alabama. Thank God for my mother. She came and stayed with us our last two
weeks in Knoxville and our first week in Alabama. She helped me get my life
everything just began to happen so fast. But the hardest part of it all was
saying goodbye to all the people that had become our family. It was so hard to
say goodbye. I had so many farewell lunches, dinners, parties, it was hard to
keep up. But I cherished each and every one of them. I shed quite a few tears,
but I knew God was working in the midst of it all and He had a reason for
sending us to the Huntsville area.
Farewell gift from our Knoxville family
We have been here
five months now. And it really has been quite an adjustment-- physically,
emotionally and spiritually. We are temporarily living in a small apartment
with three busy boys and you can imagine what that has been like. If all goes
well, however, our new house should be finished within the next few weeks.
Joshua got very sick in December and had to be hospitalized. But God healed his
little body and he was back to himself in a matter of days. Jay is enjoying his
new school and seems to be doing well.
As far as adjusting emotionally goes, most everyone seems to be doing
pretty good. I think Trent and I both struggled the most early on. Leaving our
friends was very hard for both of us.
We are in the
process of finding a church home. I
don't think we expected it to be as tough as it has been. But we want to make
sure we decide on a place that benefits our whole family and a place where we
can serve the people and worship God freely. No doubt, wherever God puts us
it's going to be exactly where he needs us to be.
I have used the
scripture Proverbs 19:21 in a previous post before and many times throughout my
life, but I cannot escape it. If there
was a "theme" for my life, this scripture would be it. It says:
Many are the plans in a
but it is the Lord’s purpose
that prevails. (NLT)
More than ever, I
know this to be true. We are looking forward to finding out His purpose for us
here in Alabama. Stay tuned!!
Jay and Trent keeping me company on the porch of our apartment.
Hey everyone! Thanks
for stopping by to check out my new blog—Mama's Maze. I am truly excited about
starting this blog. God placed this on my heart a while ago so it is awesome to
see it come to fruition. I have never
done anything like this before, so I am thrilled about venturing
into uncharted territory. Writing is a passion of mine, and I love talking
about the goodness of God. So what
better way to put the two together than in a blog.
How did I come up
with the name Mama's Maze? Well, one day
as I was pondering on what the name of this blog would be, I thought about my experiences as a mother. I mean, after being in the game for five years now, what could I compare motherhood to? After much thought, the word "maze" came to mind. If you have ever been in a maze or
played some type of game that had one, you know it can be challenging,
frustrating, and rewarding if you ever make it through. There are so many twists and turns that it
can be quite overwhelming…
When I last wrote,
my husband and I had just found out that I was pregnant moments before we were
to see the doctor about my upcoming surgery.
We walked into that
fertility doctor's office with the biggest smiles on our faces. It had been a
while since we had experienced this type of joy. They called us back into the
doctor's office and immediately we told him what had just happened. But his response
was not at all what we expected. With as much coldness as you could imagine, he said in so many words,
"it doesn't matter. This pregnancy isn't viable. You still need to have
this surgery." I couldn't believe my ears. He still wanted to do the
surgery! At that point I knew we needed to get as far away from this doctor as
we possibly could. Even if this pregnancy did not make it, his approach to us
was very frigid and insensitive.
sank! We told him we were still going to
wait and see what happens. We left that office with a determination to neve…